Lyrics by Laney Lindesmith

Just for a moment
It's back to the broken
Heartfelt letters you didn't read
I didn't know it
But I'm still hoping
For something you'd never mean
We were just friends
Always platonic
The flirting was fun
But it was only antics
Not romantic
But I romanced it

So dear my love my one
My lover that wasn't
I fell in love messed up
Chose the wrong one to keep my focus
Your eyes were quicksand
And I was sinking
In a chemical unbalance
Your jokes were stupid
But I was ruined
The moment you opened your mouth
Cause you weren't a friend but the enemy
Cue the heartbreak infinity
Love your lover
You never loved
But loved you forever

Just for a second
I'm lost in a mansion
Full of handwritten notes
A word of encouragement
A word of confession
Words I never spoke
Cause there was the other girl
You had your eyes on
Our feelings weren't enough
When she was gone
No emotion
But I was still hoping

So dear my love my one
My lover that wasn't
I fell in love messed up
Chose the wrong one to keep my focus
Your eyes were quicksand
And I was sinking
In a chemical unbalance
Your jokes were stupid
But I was ruined
The moment you opened your mouth
Cause you weren't a friend but the enemy
Cue the heartbreak infinity
Love your lover
You never loved
But loved you forever

I know damn well
You're a dickhead
I knew damn well
The moment we met
But I still fell
For your cheap shit
And I still fell
Fuck my innocence
Believed you would be
More than my intuition told me
I couldn't believe
That anyone could be that shitty
So I wrote you some songs
And I wrote you some letters
I wrote you these notes
To make me feel better
But they'll never be read
By your eyes
So I hope this is my final
Word of goodbye

So dear my love my one
My lover that wasn't
I fell in love messed up
Chose the wrong one to keep my focus
Your eyes were quicksand
And I was sinking
In a chemical unbalance
Your jokes were stupid
But I was ruined
The moment you opened your mouth
Cause you weren't a friend but the enemy
Cue the heartbreak infinity
Love your lover
You never loved
But loved you forever

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I need some time to heal
To figure out how I really feel
What part of it was for the stories
Dragons and castles alike
What part of this was amatory
Or was it all just in my mind
I saw this coming
But I didn’t heed the warnings
Cause I knew you’d bring me down with you
And I knew some part of me would break in two

I don’t know who I am anymore
I’m numb to my brokenness
Don’t know where I am
Going through the motions
Since you left me undone
And I just need some time to myself
To figure out who I am without your hell

Yeah I’m fine we can still be friends
But after I cry and after I mend
I won’t hit you up
For at least a month
Or a couple weeks or one
Time to find what I’ve lost
I saw this coming
So why am I not running
Cause I knew you’d bring me down with you
And I knew some part of me would break in two

I don’t know who I am anymore
I’m numb to my brokenness
Don’t know where I am
Going through the motions
Since you left me undone
And I just need some time to myself
To figure out who I am without your hell

I told myself you wouldn’t hurt me like this
Cause I knew you’d hurt me like this
I told myself you couldn’t get in my head
Cause I knew you’d get in my head
I told myself I’d have some common sense
Cause I knew I’d have no common sense
I told myself to forget about him
Cause I knew I wouldn’t forget about it

I don’t know who I am anymore
I’m numb to my brokenness
Don’t know where I am
Going through the motions
Since you left me undone
And I just need some time to myself
To figure out who I am without your hell

(DM me on Instagram to reach out)