Lyrics by Mia Graffis

I cried when ,I found out about them. I shouldn't be upset but I'm. Sadness and madness. Curled into 1. Depression never has been so fun. Seeing the 2 together. It kills me inside. Everytime they flirt. Makes me wanna die. But I rather...keep it inside. Showing no emotions. That's how I glide. I'm crying though. No one seems to notice what i'm about. First glance. In-love. Now it’s all burned down. I haven't realized since yesterday. Now, I can't get that image outta my brain. To remember how she didn't want him. Somehow now she got him. I'm happy for you guys. No Wait! I ain't. But I should lie. Releasing all the pain.

I want you here. But I feel you near. I miss you so. So sorry you had to go. And wish you here. But I know you're in heaven . Looking down on me. Looking down on me. Not a day goes by. Where I don't cry. Cause I missed my whole heart. And when God took you. I felt it rip apart. And some days I plead. But if Kate Bush taught us anything. You can't make a deal with God.

Depression. My way of comprehending. The thought that everything I do and say, Has a meaning; or a lesson. Got some great advice. But I will never take it. Gotta write a million songs. Before I can make it. On the radio the whole family be singing,¨ God I hate myself¨. Copin with my self-hatred. Thousands of dollars. Iĺl be making. But the scars sadness leaves. No; they ain't fading. Then I went to right my wrongs.Too late. No one wants to hear my songs. Oh great. They yell at me ,from when I´ve been entitled. But. Its been a while. Since I even smiled. They call me out ever when. I look and lay on my bed.

At 1st; I thought you loved me. But you said no dude. And then you kiss me. Now,then you asked her too. And I don’t know why. You pulled this crap on me. Lately; you’ve been ghosting the hell outta me. Text when I'm working. And ask me to leave.

I lied for you. And I cried for you. Betrayed everyone I loved. Just so I could be your one. I left my past. Forget all the fam. Caused murder in their eyes. Then you saw a sparkle in mine. That's cause your heartless. Brother of the devil. No the priests. Can't save me. Pure evil. Royalty. Honest. Is for the weak soul. I wish I could go back in time. Cause pure evil is in. His mind.

Its been like 9 hours; since you gone away. I was so happy thinking you would stay. I know that you’re out with your friends. Your friendships will not ever end. I can’t believe I wish that you would stay ok. It's been like 9 hours where you go. I don’t know. I just hope that you would hold me. So close. I know. I know. I wish you were here with me. That were weren’t on different seas. Where did you go. I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know. You were here with me. But now were history. So fire away. So fire away. And I want you near. But you don't you dare. Come close and stay.

You ghosted me. You let me bleed. Then texted me. Just to say you're sorry. I can forgive. But I won’t forget. All that you did. You little shit. Kiss me on the cheek.And now i’m losing sleep.You make me so damn mad. So when I say we're over. Or that I'm so done. But then you say my name. And you see me run.

Even though you hurt me. Baby; it's a good pain. I miss the way you grabbed me. Then you walk away. Even when I say I hate you. I have a smile on my face. Cause god knows I would do it all again. You betrayed me. The way you left me. As soon as she came around. What Do you call us. "Just Friends ". And envy is my boyfriend now.

Heartbreak has never hurt so good. You made me so misunderstood. How do I see you together now? Cause I loved you; but now lost in the crowd. I warm up ;whenever you come by. She shows up and makes me wanna die. How do I deal with this now?My heart is lost in the crowd.  I still text you. Cause I still want you. Why couldn’t you; just be gay? You 2 love so. A dore a ble. Love like this. Will never be the same. Yeah i’m jealous. And yeah i’m selfish. But I loved you first! And she loved you worse! Why is my love life; a never-ending curse?

Do you see the way she looks at me. When you tell me to fuck off? She looks kinda into me. Don't get me wrong.  Ain't trying to annoy.  Or aggravate you boy. But her lips. They look super sweet. I know you say she loves you. But buddy she loves me. Cause your girlfriends is a lesbain.  Shes in love with me. Not trying to piss you off. But she leaves;when I leave. She has been in my dms. Label more than friends.  Boy, you should leave. Cause your girlfriend is a lesbain. And she's in love with me.

  

I’ve been. Having thoughts in my head. Hoping it  will all end. I ran out of hope. I wear hoodies. Over my skin. So, the scars they fade in. And nobody knows. They say you're a ghost.1,2,3. Death awaits me. Internally screaming. Oh. No one to save you.  Been through pain too. Hard to  say what she wants to go. She's a ghost. A girl who had the most. But in her mind.  Felt so alone. She cried every night. Facing her own fight. Put a smile on her face. Wishing her life would decay. At most. She felt like a ghost. That night. While looking at the knife. It shines so bright. She can hear depression speak. “Cut those wrist skin deep”. And she lies. Says  She's alright. I’m fine. Look in those dull  eyes. There were she hides. .A girl who had the most. But in her mind. She felt  alone. She cried every night. Facing her own fight. Put a smile on her face. Wishing her life would decay. At most. She was a ghost. The last thing. She could ever say she did. Was use that  knife. Write her initials in her skin. S

You call me. Asking, having I been missing you.  I hide the tears back. I'm afraid to tell you the truth.  Our conversations . Back to normal.  But something feels different. The change of tone.  We're so distant .  So how have you been? Hows your girlfriend? Cause you told me ; " Death Till We Part". Then; you stabbed me  in the heart. How have you been? Since then. I fucken tell you. I never cry.

I have to see you. Crying. When I tell you that I gotta leave. And if I'm being honest. Our past months didn't effect me. Because I left long ago. My body was here but my heart was thrown. Just keep watching you crying. I

Wishing you a fast recovery. It was weird you were still best friends.  With the boy that I used to hate.  You can't till me that it was normal.