Lyrics by Ariel Sjöström

Is this a joke? I do so hope,
Is this the plan, now with a man?
I never knew, you want him to?
The game you play I now do say
I do not wish, not in this niche.

Now I’m clueless
Fairly useless
To you my logic’s upside down.
In this circus I’m the clown.
Conversation turned to greek
Sit there confused no words to meet
Is This a prank, no thanks i can’t
I’ll take my leave, gone on repeat

Is this a test are you the jest
Oh you’re serious, not delirious.
I’ll refuse, “nothing to lose?”
No thanks, I think I’ll stay away.

Now I’m clueless
Fairly useless
To you my logic’s upside down.
In this circus I’m the clown.
Conversation turned to greek
Sit there confused no words to meet
Is This a prank, no thanks i can’t
I’ll take my leave, gone on repeat

As I’m lost in all these themes
feels like a so much grander scheme,
I’ll walk away, no role I’ll play.
A hidden cue, “suppose you knew?”
“Oh you’re missing out!” They all scream out.
But I think I’m fairly good,
“Try it out, you really should!”

Now I’m clueless
Fairly useless
To you my logic’s upside down.
In this circus I’m the clown.
Conversation turned to greek
Sit there confused no words to meet
Is This a prank, no thanks i can’t
I’ll take my leave, gone on repeat

They call me blind, but I don’t mind
Thanks I’m good, “But no you should”
If there’s a role it’s not for me
No I’m sure, I guarantee.

Now I’m clueless
Fairly useless
To you my logic’s upside down.
In this circus I’m the clown.
Conversation turned to greek
Sit there confused no words to meet
Is This a prank, no thanks i can’t
I’ll take my leave, gone on repeat

Now I’m clueless
Fairly useless
To you my logic’s upside down.
In this circus I’m the clown.
Conversation turned to greek
Sit there confused no words to meet
Is This a prank, no thanks i can’t
I’ll take my leave, gone on repeat

Can’t you see yet? I won’t accept
Au revoir, au se vouz plait,
Pas plus ce soir.

can’t read me,
can’t see me
misunderstand
in where we stand
i greet you brief,
to a heart I lay the siege

Misused the messages I wrote,
In the song you miscomposed,
A love you saw,
but never was
a disillusion of your mind,
the true intrusion of you blind.
Thought we were friends,
no not to you.
A love to be,
is all you see.
But not to me,
we’ll never be.

A mess communication,
i never wanted more,
you see me
as your lore.
Bird sitting in a tree,
you’re trying,
reaching me
Flight in sky so bright
yell come back
with all your might.

Misused the messages I wrote,
In the song you miscomposed,
A love you saw,
but never was
a disillusion of your mind,
the true intrusion of you blind.
Thought we were friends,
no not to you.
A love to be,
is all you see.
But not to me,
we’ll never be.

A drive back,
you ride at,
read the lines
I never wrote,
now you stand
there lone and broke.
While i sing my funny tune,
whoops, I never wanted you.

Misused the messages I wrote,
In the song you miscomposed,
A love you saw,
but never was
a disillusion of your mind,
the true intrusion of you blind.
Thought we were friends,
no not to you.
A love to be,
is all you see.
But not to me,
we’ll never be.

Oddly pair,
Rocky grave,
on which we stand,
simply did
misunderstand.
Car is stuck
now televised,
as a witness drive on by.

Misused the messages I wrote,
In the song you miscomposed,
A love you saw,
but never was
a disillusion of your mind,
the true intrusion of you blind.
Thought we were friends,
no not to you.
A love to be,
is all you see.
But not to me,
we’ll never be.

An accident,
I never meant,
So you thought,
you were my man?
Lightning struck,
a great unluck.
Now I’ll flee,
gone on my steed.

But you never listened,
a grand ol’ miss on my end.
Share a kiss I never meant.

Misused the messages I wrote,
In the song you miscomposed,
A love you saw,
but never was
a disillusion of your mind,
the true intrusion of you blind.
Thought we were friends,
no not to you.
A love to be,
is all you see.
But not to me,
we’ll never be.

How I wished
I slapped you there.
Hit, cross the face
with my despair.
As i stand
like deer in fright,
lost the words
and all my might.
You took it all
just that one night.

Misused the messages I wrote,
In the song you miscomposed,
A love you saw,
but never was
a disillusion of your mind,
the true intrusion of you blind.
Thought we were friends,
no not to you.
A love to be,
is all you see.
But not to me,
we’ll never be.

I might overreact,
but to me, it did impact.
An overstep,
your own concept.
Denied your plan,
grabbed in your hand,
Now it turned to sand.
As kite I take flight,
while I wish the foe to bite.
Never touched a scorned
I now command.
never was, we never were,
a disillusion in your head.
The things you lost,
I never said.

Misused the messages I wrote,
In the song you miscomposed,
A love you saw,
but never was
a disillusion of your mind,
the true intrusion of you blind.
Thought we were friends,
no, not to you.
A love to be,
is all you see.
But not to me,
we’ll never be.

A tale begun,
but never sung,
those were told,
from times of old.
If you listen
for a whisper,
rustling leaves might play the tune,
telling you a story new.

A swan lake dance on barefoot feet
gracing crimson down the streets
color red at knifetips edge,
I leave you with a silent pledge.

Moon and sun
who once were young
longing silently to meet,
wishing,
begging
bittersweet.
in heath they’re burning their decree.

A swan lake dance on barefoot feet
gracing crimson down the streets
color red at knifetips edge,
I leave you with a silent pledge.

To seem so close, but lightyears far
Travel Saturn,
round to Mars.
Try see the backside of the moon,
A story buried way too soon.
Barely chapter one began
before the story’s met its end

A swan lake dance on barefoot feet
gracing crimson down the streets
color red at knifetips edge,
I leave you with a silent pledge.

January born
december died
that day,
that hold
an evil lie.
February twenty eighth
to February twentyninth,
only meet for just one night
count years in four,
before they,
tore
Spring to fall,
who broke it all
Winter dead and cold,
all the colors that it stole.

A swan lake dance on barefoot feet
gracing crimson down the streets
color red at knifetips edge,
I leave you with a silent pledge.

Ancient aurum,
temple quorum,
heartstrings weave,
a silent forum.
Quiet plea in moonlight blue
pearly tears are falling too.

A swan lake dance on barefoot feet
gracing crimson down the streets
color red at knifetips edge,
I leave you with a silent pledge.

Grieve I have take my flight,
up to greener pasture light.
A ticket going way too soon,
hold me close at least til noon

Withering a violent death,
quivering a silent breath
Dancing mist in meadow land
grim is making their demand,
“Let us leave, please take my hand.”
Flee to everlasting realm.

Cry no tears my dear just yet
eat with me dinner that i’ve set
round a table from the old
from all the tales that we’ve told.

Withering a violent death,
quivering a silent breath
Dancing mist in meadow land
grim is making their demand,
“Let us leave, please take my hand.”
Flee to everlasting realm.

No more time we just got half,
But do remember all the laughs,
while we’re raising all our glass.
This night might have been our last.

Withering a violent death,
quivering a silent breath
Dancing mist in meadow land
grim is making their demand,
“Let us leave, please take my hand.”
Flee to everlasting realm.

once was young has turned to old,
to ancient legends we will go
love so soft now will be lost
though not to me it never will
In grave we’ll see a moment til
meet on everafter hill.

Withering a violent death,
quivering a silent breath
Dancing mist in meadow land
grim is making their demand,
“Let us leave, please take my hand.”
Flee to everlasting realm.

The supermarket looks the same,
time standing still in cashier lane,
not a single moment lost
nothing learnt must been the cost.

Saw the miles that i have gone
now i see how far i’ve come
You’ve learned little, only some
This town a destination paus
nothing change,
now that’s the law
While still seaming all the same
moments caught in picture frame.

No evolution of a gift
better morals seem adrift
not a change i see in sight
lighting cigarettes alike.

Saw the miles that i have gone
now i see how far i’ve come
You’ve learned little, only some
This town a destination paus
nothing change,
now that’s the law
While still seaming all the same
moments caught in picture frame.

sketchy deals to make a meal
take no part in the ordeal
always too seem sacrilegious
trying to be so prestigious.

Saw the miles that i have gone
now i see how far i’ve come
You’ve learned little, only some
This town a destination paus
nothing change,
now that’s the law
While still seaming all the same
moments caught in picture frame.

preaching questionable proses
fall is killing all the roses
while you’re standing there so tall
while this town is staying stalled.

Saw the miles that i have gone
now i see how far i’ve come
You’ve learned little, only some
This town a destination paus
nothing change,
now that’s the law
While still seaming all the same
moments caught in picture frame.

Lost the chance for you to grow,
killed the plant that you have sown.
This was never quite the plan
to return sorrowed land.
Green can’t bloom
in poisoned gloom.
I’ll take my leave, i’ll pack my bags
Gone at dawn I leave the rags

Saw the miles that i have gone
now i see how far i’ve come
You’ve learned little, only some
This town a destination paus
nothing change,
now that’s the law
While still seaming all the same
moments caught in picture frame.

A knight lost in the night
true your eyes they tell of thine
They tell of ties to armor shine,
I think i could have sworn
By his side a mighty sword

With ancient words he’ll find his lead
go back home to ride his steed
The saddest fate,
a noble knight
who seem displaced

straight from storybooks on shelves,
to nightride bus all by himself
from kingdom ink where he was mentioned
dying proud was his intention

With ancient words he’ll find his lead
go back home to ride his steed
The saddest fate,
a noble knight
who seem displaced

Glimpse secrets in his eyes
left me deeply lost in sight
to most he do seem quite discreet,
no words admitting a defeat

With ancient words he’ll find his lead
go back home to ride his steed
The saddest fate,
a noble knight
who seem displaced

The sage green book that he read,
on the worn pages that he bled,
put in his bag so torn to rags
its own story as a flag.

never spoke, not in a cloak,
a simple man,
now what’s the plan?
are you from a foreign land?
What's your heading?
Maybe quest,
may i join is my request.
Only brief,
it was our meet,
our story short a simple feat
unsaid words was our defeat.

With ancient words he’ll find his lead
go back home to ride his steed
The saddest fate,
a noble knight
who seem displaced

Surrounded in a crowded room
never felt more alone,
they cant see the pain i’m hiding
but who can blame them.
should have an oscar for performance
overwork, at every hour, running thoughts out of my head

Banished by my own hand,
to let in a single soul come near
i self destruct, an incantation
a curse by my own creation
All my tears they turn maroon
Staring lonely from the moon

No shoulder I dare to cry on, no opens arms I will accept
Never trust it’s in my mind, leads to backstabs every time
Raindrops are bickering a tune
from tears that makeup bled
If each were pearls midas would’ve been jealous
they could have filled the seas, so melancholias

Banished by my own hand,
to let in a single soul come near
i self destruct, an incantation
a curse by my own creation
All my tears they turn maroon
Staring lonely from the moon

in my mind, i seek a person i can find
to love me deeply from time to time
but they all just want to fuck me
so i leave and never trust thee
never give another chance,
to one eager single man.

Should I die alone by a road
Like a deer hit with a truck
Scream catharsis screams inside my head
Although to the kids all around I smile wide
Give them all that I wished I ever had,
care more than my mother ever could

Banished by my own hand,
to let in a single soul come near
i self destruct, an incantation
a curse by my own creation
All my tears they turn maroon
Staring lonely from the moon

screaming begging, pretty please
am i invisible not quite invincible
drive off the road and crash my car
while the radio’s playing songs i hate
why can’t someone see i’m drowning, shouting for help
but all are looking at themselves, seeking someone elses approval
but i am just like them alike, i seek a person maybe two,
to share with me an interest, to understand, feels so lonely in my head

Banished by my own hand,
to let in a single soul come near
i self destruct, an incantation
a curse by my own creation
All my tears they turn maroon
Staring lonely from the moon

Play my heartstring like a lute
each they broke, I say salute.
from heartbreak to heartache
Of which you do, blame me too
while in the mirror it was you.

Bitter at the woodlands end,
No more letters care to send.
Each company you see with lust
As your game, it starts to rust.
A bitter man a shattered plan,
of what could have been,
now lost in sin.

Play my heartstring like a lute
each they broke, I say salute.
from heartbreak to heartache
Of which you do, blame me too
while in the mirror it was you.

A womans anger, castles fall
now hide it with a shiny wall.
A perfect structure built on fright
Never will i sleep tonight.
The words of might make kingdoms fall
Aren’t you who broke it all?

Play my heartstring like a lute
each they broke, I say salute.
from heartbreak to heartache
Of which you do, blame me too
while in the mirror it was you.

Hide her in a dragons hold,
where no one here will ever know.
Of what mistake of true unluck,
A girl is born whose dreams we’ll turn to dust.

Play my heartstring like a lute
each they broke, I say salute.
from heartbreak to heartache
Of which you do, blame me too
while in the mirror it was you.

A tone, a word, a worlds creates,
frost that cause the chains to break.
Quill in hand that writes so grand.
paper pen set stories end.
Broken strings tapestry weaves
show the day when we can leave.

This lute of strings play tunes anew,
tell a lore, what was foretold,
Now prophecies that wait to form,
no more with story old.

Play my heartstring like a lute
each they broke, I say salute.
from heartbreak to heartache
Of which you do, blame me too
while in the mirror it was you.

Bruises and blackeyes, lilacs for two,
painting me softly- so cruelly, by you.
All roses are faded, the tulips and me,
trampled and cut up to place in a vase.
try to extinguish the flame that was brought,
the burning inferno of chaos you are.

Each petal, keep falling- loves me, loves not?
Dance through the twilight, the sunlight forgot,
as night swallows heaven, moonlight glows cold;
paints all the ground blue in forget-me-not hue.

Caressing kisses, a giggle goodnight,
strangle the air out, go out like a light.
Picking the glass out my feet as I may,
Mercy on my soul- Please Lord, I do pray.
Though please spare my darling, he loves me, they say.

Each petal, keep falling- loves me, loves not?
Dance through the twilight, the sunlight forgot,
as night swallows heaven, moonlight glows cold;
paints all the ground blue in forget-me-not hue.

Soon I'm a goner as red-blue lights flash,
a shade of a purple to which my lips fade.
Ten feet below, no six wouldn't do,
til death do apart at earliest date,
placing me down, guess i’ll lie in my grave.
The prettiest crime scene to find I do say.

A garden wilting away like my breath,
winter is coming, no springtime is left.
Hues they turn golden, a crown of despair,
coronation of virtue- take part; royal heir.

Each petal, keep falling- loves me, loves not?
Dance through the twilight, the sunlight forgot,
as night swallows heaven, moonlight glows cold;
paints all the ground blue in forget-me-not hue.

Run, run, run like the hind
Sing, sing, sing like the wind
meadows and grasslands- invite to be seen.
Dawn it in blessings of pastels and lovers.
Staring at distance of nature in bloom,
lonely on my hill- I’ll sit in my gloom.

If love is a myth-then I’ll play the cliché.
Running from suitors I pray someday will stay.
Yet I still scowl at each stranger alike.
I wish that my heart thaws in the sun
yet it all-melts away.

They’re Picking flowers,
although they’ll die in the house.
My cynical thoughts are all that I have
Never a lover, not lonely I swear,
but crossing my fingers,
I hope that someday, someone will want me.
Not for my looks but for all that I am.
I beg I’m not too much, bruised or afraid.

If love is a myth-then I’ll play the cliché.
Running from suitors I pray someday will stay.
Yet I still scowl at each stranger alike.
I wish that my heart thaws in the sun
just to all-melt away.

Never a valentine, I’ve shut every door.
I sit in my chamber, not trying at all.
But hoping I guess I still make someone fall.

I swear I’m no poet-I hate every verse,
Though I hear my heartbeats,
so loud they might burst.
Alone on my park bench
sit there until all my bones starts to hurt.

I don’t know who, just someone will do,
unless I don’t like them-I’ll run to the woods.
hiding, yet hoping my royal’ll come.
Saving me from each proud protege.

If love is a myth-then I’ll play the cliché.
Running from suitors I pray someday will stay.
Yet I still scowl at each stranger alike.
I wish that my heart thaws in the sun
yet it all-melts away.

Crumble piece by piece,
corroded from all my tears.
Cracked, chipped, barely stable
A sculpture without a label.
Admire the polished beside on display,
naively thought I'd make it someday.

No polish will ever hide every crack.
Of every single skillset that I lack.
Glueing back the pieces that I'm missing.
Not enough to be the one I’m wishing.

“You tried”, “You’re good”, that’s what they say.
A courtesy taught, not true, just a thought.

You know that good never gets a medal,
trying doesn't get applause.
Only excellence exempts,
Will the brightness make it make sense?

A relic, a ruin of what I’m pursuing
Enough to be willing is never what’s filling
A spot amongst the masters but I’m made of plaster
A poorly made copy of their sought trophy.
Never a single chance of reaching my full advance.
I need to be there already, prove I can be there and be steady.

“You tried”, “You’re good”, that’s what they say.
A courtesy taught, not true, just a thought.

You know that good never gets a medal,
trying doesn't get applause.
Only excellence exempts,
Will the brightness make it make sense?

Falling off the ledge while chasing perfection.
Evanescent in sight while just out of grasp.
Quite broken within, still hope no one sees.
Every fracture they keep pointing out,
sure I want to know but can I fix it in time?

“You tried”, “You’re good”, that’s what they say.
A courtesy taught, not true, just a thought.

You know that good never gets a medal,
trying doesn't get applause.
Only excellence exempts,
Will the brightness make it make sense?

You know that good never gets a medal,
trying doesn't get applause.
Only excellence exempts,
Will the brightness make it make sense?

Could I be useful to some?
Could I be skillful–I doubt.
All of the traits that I possess,
None of them wanted–I guess.
True I’m the self deprecating type,
Don’t know how to do it otherwise.
Doubting every single action.
Though all it does is cause distraction.

All I touch–turn to dust
All I say–cause dismay
Every step–cause a jet–to crash
oh I lack…
Pleasure–to be around
Talent–the useful kind
Tactful grace–to not, be late

Try dealing with my feelings
Pathetic attempts at healing.
What a simple feat–try to be happy, do not weep…
”Gosh of course it’s that easy, why didn’t I think of that!”
A spinning mind of reels in time
of every mistake I find that's mine.

All I touch–turn to dust
All I say–cause dismay
Every step–cause a jet–to crash
oh I lack…
Pleasure–to be around
Talent–the useful kind
Tactful grace–to not, be late

Cause of concern, yet still never heard.
Screaming inside while thoughts race on by.
A million a minute, my beating heart with it.
Tremble and stutter, try keep up and utter.

All I touch–turn to dust
All I say–cause dismay
Every step–cause a jet–to crash
oh I lack…
Pleasure–to be around
Talent–the useful kind
Tactful grace–to not, be late

A once a million piece of mess,
is what I ought to reach success.
A piece of work she ought to be
yeah I’m sure of me they speak.
Still I'm sure that I ain't no lead.
don’t want to be seen as conceited.

Climbing the ladder,
now soon on the moon,
but somewhere along
I got everything wrong.
Doubting every step,
Using every inch of me that’s left.
Try and chase the stars, but they’re so far.

All I touch–turn to dust
All I say–cause dismay
Every step–cause a jet–to crash
oh I lack…
Pleasure–to be around
Talent–the useful kind
Tactful grace–to not, be late

Hm, mm, hm, mm, mm
hm, mm, hm, mm, mm
Mind is spinning,
thoughts-
racing with it.
shut it off-shut it out
cut out my mind
to stillness find

Masquerade, masquerade
singing a woeful serenade
A disguise of demise
Dance with me this night away
in this moment let me stay.

Beating quick often-got me so stressed
therefore plucking-a heart out my chest
locking it down
deep underground
til it never makes a sound
will I ever sleep i wonder
knocking out to blunder

Masquerade, masquerade
singing a woeful serenade
A disguise of demise
Dance with me this night away
in this moment let me stay.

seeking rest
for me a test
will I ever be so blessed.
Let me loose-out of my noose.
The symptoms yelling out;
-You lose!
Could I be just like the others
or are they also wearing covers
Do we dance a masquerade
til all our pain finally fades?

Featherlight but never bright
shadows hold a secrets might
A crescent high, a silver line
A clear distinction
of true depiction

Masquerade, masquerade
singing a woeful serenade
A disguise of demise
Dance with me this night away
in this moment let me stay.

Masquerade, masquerade
singing a woeful serenade
A disguise of demise
Dance with me this night away
in this moment let me stay.
hm, mm, hm, mm, mm
hm, mm, hm, mm, mm

A vision of Sahara's nights,
pitch black–like a starry sky.
A breath of air–now on my hands,
begging while buried in sand.
On my own, drying my tears.

Nocturnal–flipping pages
,going through the ages.
A ritual of asceticism,
atoning for my nihilism.
The voice won't fade, so here I lay

Storms tore me apart–In rags I scattered far.
Try and mend –each stitch a plea.
A broken ragdoll’s destiny.
A toy to use–no one sees fit.

Nocturnal–flipping pages
,going through the ages.
A ritual of asceticism,
atoning for my nihilism.
The voice won't fade, so here I lay

Hope’s the cruelest
a desert mirage
a trick of the mind.
seeking kindness
for every drop I thirst.
A heart so dry,
each word might break a curse.
Each letter and note,
Speaking of worth– wishing I hold.

Nocturnal–flipping pages
,going through the ages.
A ritual of asceticism,
atoning for my nihilism.
The voice won't fade, so here I lay

Thum, hm, hm,thum, hm, hm, hmmmmm, thum, thum, hmmmm
Break my back –with stones I carry up
Step by step –up the mountainside I curse.
Bleeding your name–thought you’d stay the same.
heart was wrong –never as strong,
to find your soul was lost.

Pull me under, drown me slow
make me starve for you to close.
The distance you’re keepin´–insisting; the deep end.
lighting my lungs, stealing my breath
a kiss of death –is what you left.

hunting every speck of light, in the shadows every night.
To plead –to beg –to find what's kept
so I might hold –what is left.
Seeking for tenderness –to be beloved -so effortless.
Greet me kind –satisfied –but your heart was calcified.

Pull me under, drown me slow
make me starve for you to close.
The distance you’re keepin´–insisting; the deep end.
lighting my lungs, stealing my breath
a kiss of death –is what you left.

But how do you still make my knees weak
when you enter a room your presence still speak
Of stories we had –of stories we didn’t –a chapter cut short.
Tear me to pieces –making me bleedin´.
Still I yearn for you, as your turnin´my skin blue.

Traced your poison in my veins –a piece of art of your remains
as seductive as your name, enlightening a flame.
As it ravages –consumes.
still it warms me in my wounds.

Pull me under, drown me slow
make me starve for you to close.
The distance you’re keepin´–insisting; the deep end.
lighting my lungs, stealing my breath
a kiss of death –is what you left.
thum, hm, hm,thum, hm, hm, hmmmmm, thum, thum, hmmmm

Hmmm, hm, hm, hmmm, hm, hm, hmmm, hmm, hm, hm, hm
Close the distance that im keepin’ –creepin’ –in my heart is leapin´
still I do not fit, in the lover that you miss.
Deep brown eyes –a smile so wide,
making me laugh so much that it aches,
still I do not fit the place.
Not often does it feel so right,
a gentleman that’s in demand –this isn’t what i planned.

Oh, my, my, my why do i do it all the time.
A phantom of a presence –A ghost of an essence
Lure you out to seek me out, Though I dissipate –disintegrate,
a courtesy disgrace –I jolt from each embrace.

You seem to understand –though you cannot be my man.
Seeking so much more —a woman who adores
every inch of your skin, I cannot quite get in.
Why do I keep my distance? –overthinking every instance
past, now, future -time, I couldn’t be the right.

Oh, my, my, my why do I do it all the time.
A phantom of a presence –A ghost of an essence
Lure you out to seek me out, Though I dissipate –disintegrate
a courtesy disgrace –I jolt from each embrace.

Leavin’ you on read, instead I should have said.
each sentence that I thought, what could and might have brought.
I know I should hold out, though I can’t utter a sound.
How do I do, do not have a clue, missing a lead for what else I need.
As you checkmarked of my list –I did not for you fit.

If I answered –what could we have been.
adventures ahead, smaller or grand.
although a chance was never given as I was keepin’ my distance.
could we’ve been friends or maybe more?
Though now you’re a dear stranger –forever more.

Oh, my, my, my why do I do it all the time.
A phantom of a presence –A ghost of an essence
Lure you out to seek me out, Though I dissipate –disintegrate
a courtesy disgrace –I jolt from each embrace.
Hmmm, hm, hm, hmmm, hm, hm, hmmm, hmm, hm, hm, hm