Lyrics by Ben Manuell

I don’t hurt,
Anymore,
I No longer feel,
Pain like before,

& All I am,
Is numb,
So afraid,
Of what I’ve become

Pre chorus:
As I grow older,
My spirit gets colder
The light in my soul has dulled

Chorus:
I haven’t worn a smile
for a while,
Even a frown is rare,
My heart isn’t heavy,
It’s just rusty & empty,
& the truth is
I don’t even care.

I don’t cry,
Anymore,
Indifferent,
To the core

Anger and rage,
Doesn’t burn from within,
The fire is tamed,
Before it even begins

Prechorus:
My body is older,
My souls grown colder
I Burn my hand & fold

Choruse:
I haven’t worn a smile
for a while,
Even a frown is rare,

My heart isn’t heavy,
It’s just rusty & empty,
& the truth is
I don’t even care.

Bridge:
Each tale of heartbreak,
The betrayal of trust
Each moment of heart ache,
Of deceit & lust,

Every bridge that burnt,
& promises broken
Every lesson I’ve learnt
& lies that were spoken

The past has carved,
My soul of stone,
Forged to be numb,
Detached & alone

Outro:
Ecstasy, Joy, sorrow & pain,
Love, Compassion, hate & disdain,

Jealousy, doubt, hope & desire,
A friend, an enemy, the honest, the liar

All human emotion,
through sunshine & rain,
I’ll never feel anything,
Ever again

Not now, not ever,
Never again

I wish I could delete you,
Erase the memories in my brain,
You promised me eternal sunshine,
But left me standing in the rain,

All that I have left of us,
Plays on loops inside my mind
There’s no remote to switch it off,
An internal prison that I’m confined

Prechorus;
I hope in time I can forget,
The life we both once knew,
But for now I lie awake,
Exchanging sleep for you.

Chorus:
I wish I could erase her,
Put our past right through a shredder,
Get hypnotized and go under,
To get over and forget her,

I hope I catch a virus,
That wipes my data clean,
So I can start a brand new journey,
Without knowing where I’ve been


I’ll teach myself some magic,
So all these thoughts can vanish,
Like the way you left me standing here,
Like an outcast that you banished

Maybe in 40 years,
My memory will decline,
Though I know that when I’m older,
You’ll still be in my mind

Prechorus;

I hope in time I can forget,
The life we made together
But deep inside, and though I’ve tried,
I’ll remember it forever

Chorus:
I wish I could erase her,
Put our past right through a shredder,
Get hypnotized and go under,
To get over and forget her,

I hope I catch a virus,
That wipes my data clean,
So I can start a brand new journey,
Without knowing where I’ve been


I guess the question remains,
As it always has before
Is it better to have loved,
Than to have never loved at all

I know the streets every crack,
Ever bar & broken sign,
I know the faces looking back,
But none of them know mine,

I’ve learnt to leave before I’m left,
To laugh before they see me hurt,
Keep every good thing at arms length,
Like somehow I’m making it work,

Pre chorus:
You could tell me I’m worth saving,
I’d find a reason to disagree,
Cause it’s easier to call it nothing,
Than to risk it meaning something to me

Chorus:
Maybe I could let somebody in,
And stay instead of run,
Maybe there’s a life beyond this town,
That shines in a hopeful sun,
The closerrr you get,
The more I push you away,
Bostons mine & here I’ll stay…

How’d you like them apples?
A witty quip to mask the pain,
I could spend my whole life proving’
I’m the smartest in the room again

Yeah ‘my boys hella smart’
A chalkboard equation, the spoken word
Can recite a sonnet, explain life’s art,
But still I don’t know what I deserve

Pre chorus;
You could tell me it’s not my fault,
I’d find a way to disagree,
I could tear your fucking world apart,
Deflecting my insecurities

Chorus;

Maybe I could let you in,
And stay instead of run,
Maybe there’s a life beyond this town,
That shines in a hopeful sun,
The closerrrr you get,
The more I push you away,
Bostons mine & here I’ll stay

You sat me down upon a bench,
Gazed upon a tranquil pond,
‘Visiting hours don’t apply’
When you have that special bond,

With every word you opened my eyes,
Broke down my barriers
& gave me belief,
My choices are mine,
My own free will,
‘Your move chief’

Chorus;

Maybe now I’ll let you in,
& Together we can run
And find a life beyond this town,
That shines in a hopeful sun,
& now chuckie can smile,
It’s the best part of his day,
No goodbye or see you later,
I’m chasing better days,

Outro:
Boston was my home,
My selfish fucked up little world,
Today I’m choosing me,
‘I’m going to see about a girl

Well you can say what you want,
But nothings gonna bring me down,
Do you dream of the stars,
As you fall to the ground.

Does the night stand still,
Cause you forgot your pill,
Does it now….

Does it really mean a thing,
With all that in between,
Does it now…

Did you ever let it lie???

Excuse me for sayin’,
That I care,
There’s no words you want to hear,
What’s the point,
When you’re not here,
When I’ve triiiiiied,

So leave me as I am,
A bitter, twisted man,
& let it lie.

So you can say what you want,
But you’re never gonna break me down,
Do you dream of the stars,
As they fall through the clouds?

When you try, try, try,
But there’s no hope for you nowww,
There’s nothing left for you,
Just half the man I though that you liiiked,

Does it really mean a thing,
With all the in between,
Does it now?…,


Did you ever let it lie?

Excuse me for saying,
That I care,
Words that fade into thin air,
What’s the point,
When you’re not here,
When I’m tiiiiired,


So leave me as I am,
A bitter twisted man,
& let it lie

I wont let a song bring me down,
It was ours but it’s mine now,

So leave me as I am,
A bitter twisted man,
& let it lie.