Lyrics by Carly Casteel

It’s always the summer that hits the worst
digging deep like sharpened words
as the july heat burns my skin
just like you did to me within
when you brought me into your world of fantastical glamour
Transfigured a princess and I’ll always blame her
Time has been an illusion sweeping you away
but bringing you closer just before it fades
We’d dance in the courtyard at the end of day
and every step we took the more I would break
that summer I had you stuck in my grasp
as we’d pick up our pace and moved it to the grass


who would have thought I had a heart to shatter
between love and despair I always chose the latter
but it was you who finally made me see
it cuts like a knife when you’re not the one to leave
but like the springtime needs it rain
every summer brings its pain

There’s a razor blade in every kiss
you’d be astonished on how it fits
between my teeth and behind my tongue
“These kids are too weak gotta start em off young”
I’ve been thinking about that summer we had
when we took so many pills I can’t remember the better half
but I do recall you saying it could never be love
lying naked in the garden with the blue sky up above
I should know better we only lived for lust
(but)you took my strawberry heart and rotted it to dust


It’s always your lover that hits the worst
She’s so gorgeous but I was first
as the august heat burns my skin
the light inside me starts to dim
Time has been an character compelling you to stay
reminding you of the love we once made
I truly believed it was never too late
with your lousy kisses and pleas of fate
that summer you treated me like I was a task
I did everything and more to make that shit last

I wonder what would’ve happened if you only loved me back
would I return here every summer on my self-fulfilling path
to brood in my own sadness just wishing for that chance
you’d brush past and finally catch my glance
I’m an enemy of the lord if I stay where I stand If I ask you to leave, would you take my hand?
of course not your baby she’s always made more
so I clinge to the memories I abundantly hoard

There’s a razor blade in every kiss
I was so astonished on how it fits
between your teeth and behind my tongue
cutting me up and pretending it’s love
I only ever think about that summer we had
you’re the one that got away and it’s driven me mad
you said I was your favorite but it could never be love
what’s a gemstone to a diamond, I wasn’t good enough
I should’ve known better than to give you my trust
because Without your heart there could never be an us

You set down your chips and send me a glance
I’m always giving it up at every single chance
in this run down casino on the nice side of town
shameful in perspective, but only the lord can lift my frown
as you go to take a sip and leave for a smoke
I’ll give you this moment before I ultimately choke
Darling I know that you can see through my game
but are willing to play if I will just say your name

all bets are off when I step into the ring
because I can’t commit long enough to win a damn thing
trust me when I say you won’t go unbruised
but when I’m playing solo, I’m always gonna lose

You know the rules it’s puff puff pass
I’ll be talking with my eyes while you’re staring at my ass
the guys at the table really hate my guts
because they’ve never met a bitch who has bigger nuts
they’re getting too loud and they stutter when they talk
I have to lose my ace or they’re lining me in chalk
I move to my knees to pray to some god
but I have that confused, it’s been so damn long

i confide in total strangers and push away those who care
who can trust a loser who’s never even there? just waiting for my moment of glory
will I rise or will I fall
the bets taking action, so bury me or winner takes all

I can only imagine the look on your face
when you see im making calls
my mind is as fragile as 100 stacked plates
Which id wager will be fine before it falls
so I’ll set down my cards with a shit eating grin
and watch the trust around you thin and thin
It’s been a few years will I ever learn?
or will I take another shot and feel the burn?

all bets are off when I step into the ring
because I’ve never been the one to love a damn thing
trust me when I say you won’t go unbruised
you thought we were playing doubles and now we’re both gonna lose

i confide in total strangers and push away those who care
who can trust a loser who’s never even there? just waiting for my moment of glory
will I rise or will I fall
the bets taking action, so bury me or winner takes all